Our life together has always just been easy. There has never been a time where I’ve looked at you and questioned how I felt, but it doesn’t mean I’m not scared. I’ve always been the type of girl who falls in love too fast. And with you, I tried my best to not do it again. I kept my emotions to myself, while you always went over and beyond for me. And in the end, that’s what made me fall head over heels in love with you.
But it still terrifies me that you might break my heart like all the others… Knowing I love you so much always sinks in at times of insecurities. And I’m sure that’s what this is. But what if I’m not good enough for you? The guy I love more than anything…
What if I disappoint you or we change into people who sadly can’t be together? I’m worried too much about these what if’s and I know that. And I know that you love, there is no doubt in my mind. But my love for you is just so strong that my fear of you losing you gets overwhelming at times.
I know I have never loved someone as much as I love you. But it doesn’t change the fact that I’ve been broken before and I don’t want to be broken by you. Yes, I could handle being broken again, but my point is, I don’t want to. Especially, if that means I’m losing you.
I know in my heart you’re the person I want to conquer this world with. The person I see myself with until the day I take my last breath. And it gets me so damn happy every time I think about it because it’s so possible. And I have never been this close to feeling or knowing that someone was supposed to be a part of my life for the rest of it.
So if that were to change… Life would be hard and understandably so.
You light up my world and even though one-day things may change… I’m not too worried. I see you every day knowing I will never give up on you. Knowing that no matter the challenges that face us, we can conquer anything because we just get each other.
I know you try your best every day to love me and I am so blessed for that. Thank you for never getting mad at my insecurities. And thank you for always going over and beyond to remind me why I shouldn’t worry.
You surprise me every day with the guy you’re becoming and I hope that I make you feel that same way. Because even though I’m afraid of getting hurt it is only because I love you so much. I love you more than I have ever loved someone else and it’s an amazing feeling.
You are my best friend, my partner in crime, and love of my life. And you are worth any pain that comes from loving you and I promise you that.
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